I cant be depressed !!!!!

Help me out guys, I cant do a good depression. What is going on why do I have to always think « ok it is bad but you can fix this ». So yes there is moment when I am able to feel down but it never last. What wrong with me !
Let me give you an example, I put myself back on M, yes why not? On paper i am perfect, yes ok I have children and I am not super tall and yes i am old. Three think i can really do much about and don t neither, after it is me.
OK 18 visits in one day (trust me it is a lot for a man) and nobody wants to contact me, this could be tragic but i can only see it has being funny. This shows the weaknesses of M.
Let me explain and no i am not blowing my trumpet here. I am not because i am the only one reading!
So 18 visits because i like to think that my photo is fairly good, maybe some people think i airbrushed it and it is not really me or me 20 years ago, in fact i took it from my phone yesterday, and trust me airbrushing your photo from a phone is a serious challenge.
And you know what, this make me laugh because all these people who are looking for the prefect man, cannot spot one when they see it… OK i am not perfect i give you that but from what i have been told i am a good catch some explanations:
1) Own my home, very solvent and no debt
2) Fairly good looking. Ok you can do better but frankly i m not ashamed... without being full of myself... come on trust me on this one!
3) Never fight, never argue
4) Dont drink dont smoke (…ish) dont do drug
5) Run a 20k in about 1 :20
6) Very good with children
7) Never cheated
8) Socially capable
More importantly
9) the kind of guy who cares only about the people living with him, no passion for foot on TV or any other things...here to make the other person feel good
10) Very open mind and ready to do what it takes. I move countries three times on request while remaining the main bread earner!
OK you are wondering why are you on your own then? Because after a lot of years together the other person acknowledges that she never conceived to live her life with one person.

Coming back to M, they are all missing that, is it not funny?
OK now, your comments please, I want to feel depressed so go on crush me, crucify me, and make me cry please.